Please Excuse Me

I work hard

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 04:43:30 GMT

Dear Guy,
I know I have never met you. But I am aware of what you seem to think of me. I know you do not think I am a "good person" because of things you have been told. I would like to set my side of things straight. I will start by saying this, I have worked very hard in my life to get where I am, and I think you have been told a lot of lies about me. I will start with the big one, I wont address what exactly it is but simply give you my defense. I met my husband when we worked together. I was in the end of a very serious long term relationship when I met him, and so was he. We did not date or spend any time together until both of our relationships were over. That is why we are still together today, I believe that a relationship started with cheating will never have the trust it needs. His relationship with "T" ended because she was sending everyone on the internet naked pictures and videos of herself, he found out while fixing her computer. Then too many unanswered questions when she would go out, and questionable "friendships".
Over the next few years of our relationship I endured harassment, the person instigating all off this was guess who! Bar fights because she sent people we don't know over to call me a whore or a slut or whatever else she could think of. Was I always in the right? No. I did make friends with a friend of hers, not because of her or having to do anything with her, but she used to date my husbands brother, we made friends like that, none of the conspiracy theroies were true. My relationship with that girl ran it's course and unfortunatley the bad blood between family and her wasn't able to be overcome. Her ex Jeff and I began talking when he simply contacted me to warn me about the fake myspace she created to read my private blogs. After that we have spoken every so often, and he even did our ice sculpture for our wedding.
Over the past few years I have had to protect myself and my family from fake internet names, on myspace, facebook, parenting boards, on every forum imaginable. This isn't just me saying it, but I have proof. We wanted to file a restraining order, however internet law is not really established. To me it was the worst of stalking. I was no longer comfortable talking to moms I talked to every day of my pregnancy because I never knew if it was her prying for more information in my life. Do I talk to Aimee and Ryan on a regular basis? Yes. How? Why? Because when I caught her stalking me on my pregnancy boards there was a melt down, she was called out, and blamed Aimee, regardless off proof with IP addresses and all from the people running the sites. She posted her personal information out there and told everyone that it was Aimee just trying to make her look bad. Aimee and I became friends, based primarily on our parenting, it began with what had happened between " T" and I , and continued because we had things in common. Soon ryan was in the picture. I will say this, he didn't start out as a person I would talk to and respect. But I have seen him step up. I am afraid you may be under the misconception that he has pushed his son to the side. When it really is not like that at all. He has had many difficulties getting along with his sons mother. When she was cited for child endangerment the courts asked for his information, she told them she didn't have it, however she was still calling him. When she failed to cooperate with Child Services and they set a court date and appointed a Guardian at Liadum she still told thim she did not have his information, regardless of the fact they were communicating regularly on the phone. The GAL had to find him on MYSPACE, after trying to find him on Facebook, unfortunatly he doesn't have a Facebook. It was only then that he found out that his son was found wandering the streets of Avon Lake not once, not twice, but three times in a month? When he found out about her first court date, he asked her point blank, and she told him it happened once and she was "taking care of it". Months later he is contacted becasue it is going to court with Childrens Services and they think he has nothing to do with his son. I feel for him in the worst way. Coming from a family with parents that were split it doesn't seem fair to that little boy. I get that his parents don't get along, but he still wants to know what is going on, but he is constantly lied to.
I do not mean of this in a negative way, but simply to tell you my side, as I do not appreciate the way I have been referred to. I believe that the universe sends back to you what you put out there. I have worked hard to put positive things out into the world, and I am sorry if this seems negative, but I have worked to hard, and been through too much to not stand up for myself. I am sure this will not change how you think of me, and I am sure this will just be thrown into the "she is trying to ruin my life" pile of things, but I don't care. I work hard to better myself, and nowt hat I have said my peace you can think whatever you want about me. But if you knew me, you would know that I work hard for my family, that no matter how I get them, my friends are just as important, this would be obvious by the fact that I am friends with the same people I have been friends with since middle school. So before you deem me not a good person, remember that everyone has a side and a story.

I know what I said but I am so excited!

Sat, 07 May 2005 23:42:57 GMT

I know I said I got a new journal, but I have to make a post for those who arn't on my new friends list and all that good stuff. I am moving out. I am getting a place with my friend Kristin. J and I have talked about living together but it seems to soon. I pretty much live there as it is, but it is so nice to know that I will have my own place to go when I am not with him knowing I won't hear someone bitch at me. I am so excited! Mom isn't very supportive but I really don't care. My dad is, my man is and that is all that matters!

A new Journal

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 18:58:26 GMT

As I said before I have a blog on myspace so if anyone on my friends list has a myspace account just let me know.

http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=5001768&Mytoken=20050327104648

I may start a new livejournal eventually. so just let me know.

Just to let everyone know

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 20:31:48 GMT

I am done with my livejournal. Too much drama and bullshit revolves around this thing and I don't want to deal with it. I am going to leave up what I have but I don't think I will be updating it. If you keep me friended I will still be on to keep up with my friends. If you want to keep in touch my email is ThatCaliGirl@gmail.com and my aim name is ParTgirl30. I also have a myspace account that is much easier to keep up with and not checked up on as much by people.

Sleep!

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 17:37:30 GMT

I am so tired! Back to work today! Fun stuff! I feel bad cause J has done nothing but work all week and I have had two days off:( Ugh I have yet to sleep in my own bed in the past week and a half!... And I LOVE it! I got to the parents to shower, do some laundry and maybe kill some time. It's great! I can't wait till the summer! They're are like two weekends in the summer we are gonna need off together cause we are gonna go out on his boat! It will be so nice! Just pack up, leave for a weekend and go party on an island! He invited me the end of last summer but I never got a chance to go. So a few days here and there on the boat and a full weekend or two! It will be amazing! You should be so jealous! JK. Good thing our new store manager already knows about us! (more likely to get vaca time together oh yeah and he is gonna be an asm so once again he will be above me:()
Well Kids I am off. Gotta go to the rents and do some laundry and get ready for work;)

Well Color Me Stupid

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 23:03:05 GMT

So last night helped me remember why I don't drink all that much. I mean yeah I go out with the girls have a few drinks, or go out with the guys and have a few beers. Last night I felt the need to do all of the above. BLEH! So first I went and saw the Ring TwO with Jill, Tim, and the coolest guy ever Andy (my way awsome cousin who is like a brother to me). Which was just awfull, the dumbest movie I have EVER seen. I should have known better, I mean the first one was an okay suspensful kinda movie, not really anywhere to go from there.
So after the movie we went to the Ironwood in Westlake and I had a drink with Jill and the guys split a pitcher. Soon after we decided that it was far too expensive that we should go to Tailgators. So we headed out to Gators. It was awsome JJ's Buddy Andy was bartending (I am gonna miss him, he is leaving to manage a bar in the keys... lucky boy!) So we played a few games of pool and at that point I had a few beers with the guys.
So the boys left at 12ish and Jill and I continued with the drinks and played video games at the bar. Then Andy and I decided that they needed to make a drink called a Hula-Hoop. So we made one up. It is pinapple juice and malibu rum in a rocks glass then you drop in a shot of 151 with a bit of rasberry pucker and well from there it kicks you ass. So by then JJ got there and I must have been drunk cause I let Jill take my car (she was fine though, just get nervous cause it is stick).
So I got back to J's and I am pretty sure I passed out. It was good fun! I was sick as hell this morning and I am never drinking ever again. It was nice to wake up next to him though, that helped a bit with the hangover. Gatoraide... JJ and Gatoraide the best cure for a hangover!
So now I am off to dinner with mom because the Boyfriend has to work:( One of these days we will get to go out for dinner or somthing. Either he works or I work is sucks!

Oh what a night... kinda like that song!

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 20:50:57 GMT

So work last night was awsome. We had a great night and I got out at 9:40. Went to teh store and got a bottle of Captin Morgans coconut rum, and a case of Miller Lite. Suz, Amber and Dave and I all hung out at Jill's and drank and drank. J called and asked me to meet him at Tailgators but I didn't wanna ditch suz since she has three weeks to turn 21. So right as everyone was getting ready to leave J called and I decided to get ready to head over there. So then his brother Nick ims me hitting me up for beer because it was too late to buy it. Now I like Nick and everything but I am not driving 20 miles one direction just to turn around and go to JJ's in the opposite direction!
So I finally got there at 3ish and he told me to hurry up and get in bed next to him. So I actually got some sleep. I don't remember falling asleep but waking up. Got up JJ came with me to the bank and made my car payment. Then we headed out to Avon Lake to see his family. Had some burgers with him, his dad and his brother. Good times. Went home, showerd, now I have to work. I can't wait! Actually shouldn't be too bad JJ switched shifts with this other guy at work so now I get to work with him tonight. Catch you on the Flipside;)

White Cloud anyone?

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 22:10:19 GMT

So yestuday I didn't spend wasted.... I know, I let a lot of people down on that one, forgive me I droped the ball. Instead I went home after work and took a shower. Ryan called me after that (not the ex) and asked if I wanted to hang out which started a spree of my phone ringing all crazy like. In the end I went to Walgreens to get makeup (for fun) then hung out with the most awsome guy in the world! Three guesses on who that is!
So we were hanging out, watched some tv, he made me laugh until I could cry and so on and so forth. Well at like 12:45ish he starts getting calls from a restricted number... He answers... bar noise. They call back again... Well duh we arn't stupid we know who the hell it is! So then they call back again after I had fallen asleep and I was PISSED so I answered and still nothing... just bar noise. Someone needs to get a grip on life here. So then at 3:45am my ex decides to call... his reason was "well I saw that you called..." at 7pm! Don't call me at 3:45am I wont answer because it is 3:45am... More than likely my very angry boyfriend who is sick and now awake will answer! And it isn't like you didn't know why I had called...
So then today I dragged his ass out of bed and took him to the urgent care and then we got lunch at A&J's. Now he is working and I will be soon to follow. Then an awsome night out with my GIRLS! JillA, Amber, Suz and me are gonna paint this fucking town! Then maybe we will go to JJ's and his roomate and his brother can hit on Amber some more! HA

Shady people are everywhere!

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 23:06:12 GMT

So I dropped my car off for an oil change this morning and they called me to tell me that my transmission was going. Pisses me off because i talked to the dealership I bought it from about it and they said it was fine they checked it out. They were clearly lying to me. So now I smell a lawsuite. Nice to have lawyers in the family.
So then my ex (ryan) said he would help me with a diffrent thing dealing with my car when I got off work and suddenly he can't. I am just sick of people and there bullshit. I swear it is so nice having Jill and JJ. At least those two have some sense of common curtosey. IF you say you are going to do somthing for or help someone with somthing then do it, don't jerk them around. I guess that's what you get right?
Well I am off gonna do somthing that I know will piss off the people/person that have pissed me off today. I do beleive I am 60% irish and it is time for me to drink some green beer, and by some I mean probably a lot

This week was horrible!

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 17:12:58 GMT

So I got to start out this week with Tiff's wake. It was possibly the worst thing I have ever had to deal with. I was fine and trying to hold it together for Jill but as soon as we walked in and I saw Tiff's boyfriend Matt I lost it. I cry and cry because I know how much I loved Tiff after knowing her for only a year, I can't imagine how Jill and Matt felt. It took a good hour to get Jill to go see her and when we did I handled it a little worse. I realized that this was my first real chance to cry about it. Since Thursday I wouldn't cry around Jill. It didn't look like her, and a few days before Tiff had dyed her hair red and she hated it and never got to fix it... That made me cry, then I thought about how when we (well they I was sick) were getting ready to go out like two weeks ago, I was doing Tiff's hair. It sounds so stupid. I wish more then anything that I had just ignored the fact that I was sick and gone out with them. I will always have amazing memories of Tiff because she was an amazing person.
The wake was crowded to all hell and it started to panic me a lot. I came home and just exploded. It just doesn't seem fair. Jill and I have been known to smoke, eat eniterly too much taco bell, and on ocassion drink entirely too much. While Tiff would have a few drinks with us and she over indulged in taco bell as well, it just doesn't seem right. Assholes like my step dad who don't want or try to live are still walking around slowly killing themselvs and she is the one dead. The next morning I could hardly open my eyes. I didn't go to the funeral, I wanted to, I just couldnt handle it.
I am still in shock, it has been almost a week and it is still almost impossible for me to accept. The three of us arn't going to Florida for spring break now, no more nights in the flats dancing it up, no more renting bad movies like the skulls III and laughing the whole time because we hadn't even seen II and we wern't quite sure if it matterd, but Jill will still probably keep telling me I don't shift like Tiff... she was much better at it than I was, we are never going to get to go snowboarding at Peak'n'Peak...
Jill is going to get a tattoo for Tiff three snowflakes with her initials in them, and a little snowboarder girl standing under them. If you knew Tiff it would be appropriate. I was thinking of a snowflake, kinda like the one Tiff had. That girl was always giving me a hard time about not getting a tattoo and wanting one. I know it won't be her intials but it will always remind me of her.
Well it's time for me to run... I need to see how Jill is doing and get ready for work.

The World Lost an Amazing Soul Today

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 03:44:10 GMT

So today started like most days I have had. I cleaned my room and did my laundry which is kinda out of the norm. Then I went to work. I am working and it wasn't a bad day down at the local blockbuster until my best friend Jill called. She was crying so hard I couldn't understand her and everything was a mess. Our friend Tiff is dead. She was Jill's best friend and a wonderful person. Talks of a trip to Florida at the end of the month and trying to get together for a girls night out at the clubs... Now she's gone... I can't even understand it right now. She wasn't sick, she was fine and now she's gone. How do you just drop dead when you're 21? I don't even know what to do or say I am not good with these things I just want to shut down now, go to sleep for the next month or so. I need a hug.
I didn't know Tiff that long and she has tought me more then anyone I know. Anything could happen to any of us at anytime you never know when a goodbye could be your last. Never let someone you love leave angry. I am done taking what I have for granted. I need to get my shit together and go back to school and do somthing with my life... Do somthing Tiff didn't even get the chance to do.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ R.I.P. Tiff~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~~*
9/10/83-3/10/05

Well That Was Fun!

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 17:08:42 GMT

Nothing like a root canal at 9am to wake ya up! That was NOT fun at all! I spent last night at J's even though I told my mom I would be home. I went over there at like 10ish for beer and pizza. Once I am there and he wraps his arms around me and holds me and snuggles I can't leave it just wont happen. So I curled up with him and got an awsome nights sleep... Granted I didn't go to bed until 5am... But that is par for the course. I could sleep on a rock as long as he was there.
So anyhoo I think I am gonna go pass out and hope that the face/teeth/jaw stop hurting... NOT COOL!

I wish I was more random...

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 00:22:37 GMT

How is that for randomness!? HA! So last night was oh so much fun... I was pissed cause they cut my hours yesturday and told me not to come in to work... I go in to return movies and the guy that they cut me for was sitting around talking on the phone playing video games... ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? I was so pissed. JJ was even annoyed... They cut me someone who does their job for some jackass that sits around and does jack fucking shit!
So when JJ got off we went to B-dubs in River and had a drink and hung out and talked. It was very nice. Then we went to his house watched aqua teen and fell alsleep. I am hoping his friend Mary Jo calls me back soon. I really really like her she is a lot of fun. I think everyone expects me to be wierd about her because her and J have a "history" that I know about and it wasn't a big thing, not to mention I trust JJ because he isn't a dirty liar and we have talked about this thing a billion and one times.
So tomorrow is my root canal! Wish me luck because I am terrified!

J is so Amazing!

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 21:25:25 GMT

Ahhh can't even count the reasons why.... But most recently he is staying late at work so I can get to see my dad before he leaves! AWSOME... I know he probably REALLY wants to get out of the place after 8 hours but he is staying... for me! I can't wait to get to work, and be done so I can go over there and see him! So I am off to have dinner with my dad then time to work.

Just a little releaved!

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 15:03:58 GMT

So last night was the big night! JJ met my dad! lol. My dad was cool and I get the impression that he liked JJ. He made a point to talk to him and take a few pictures of us together. Good sign for my dad. I give the boy credit, the whole thing was just a little overwhelming for me, and he handled it really well. By whole thing I mean they party and the ammount of people there.
So we had some food and I had a few glasses of wine ( by a few I mean about 7). It was a good night, I called it an early night and I slept like a rock! We went back to his house where I got some special attention and he made a pot pie (to make up for the creepy party food) then I promptly fell asleep on the couch. He did wake me up and convince me to get up and come to bed... But I was seriously considering (in my half passed out delirious stage) of just staying on the couch, it was so warm and I was so comfortable! When I crawled into bed I rememberd that is is 120398234 times more comfortable with him.... IMADORK I KNOW!
So today J works 9-5 and I work 5-12 with the most useless csr ever! Looks like I am gonna have to go over there after work though cause I am still wearing his sweats and shirt... oh whatever will i do!? So soon my dad will call and we will go to lunch/brunch... somthing. I am so bummed that he leaves today... We always have so much fun! Well I am off to watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force.... Laters Gaters!

Hip Hip Hoooray!

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 02:00:57 GMT

So my dad is in town AWSOME! I spent the day poopin around with him. Had breakfast at Minerva's LOVE their breakfasts. Then Hung at my aunt Mary's, where I saw my cousin Taryn and tried to talk her into some fun hair play. I want to get my color done again and I can't do it myself. I also got to see my cousin Kate who I havn't seen this summer, I am thinking that has somthing to do with the fact that she lives in Ireland... Then my dad took me and Kate to go see BeCool. Which was a pretty good movie actually, considering it was a sequal and I havn't seen the first one...
Then Dad and I hit the mall where he indulged me in and AWSOME Aqua Teen Hunger Force t-shirt, some great music (Concrete Blonde and Jill Sobuel) as well as the first season of Aqua Teen Hunger Force on DVD... My dad is awsome!
So I came to Jill's house with the intentions of a nap, but that didn't happen, like I sit down and I get tired, but when I move at all I am up up up. So I showerd and I am gonna get ready. Meeting my dad and his friends at the Winking Lizard in Lakewood where I will also hopefully meet up with JillA and JJ. So we'll see. So kiddos I'm off like a prom dress!

Nothing like some vicaprofin!

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 20:22:36 GMT

I finally dragged my ass to the dentist who in turn sent me to a specialist and yippie! Looks like I get a root canal. This is possibly some of the worst pain I have ever felt. Ok, anyone on here remember back in the day when I wrecked my car and my face? I busted my face wide open and they gave me pain killers and I didn't take a single one. OR when they pulled my wisdome teeth... Nothing. Well let me tell you how THIS feels... I have spent the majority of the past few days CRACKED out of my mind on these pain killers. I have started feeling a little less goofy but man... Good thing I started out only taking half of one.
So I hung out with Jill last night then I spent my nights where I usually do;) Haha I forgot to mention he gave me my own ringtone... Kinda embarassing but I find it funny. The Bloodhound Gang (that mamals song, you and me baby aint nothing but mamals so lets do it like they do on the discovery channel) yeah that one.
FUNNY STORY! I was hanging out with JJ, Steve and Chris last night watchind Deadwood... So I get a few text messeges from this guy Tom whom I kind of dated and things never got serious. We remaind at the point of the perpetual booty call. Well I get a messege "what are you doing?" then "I am jelous of your bf".... WHAT!? I asked him why he was jelous and I got some response about how He wishes he had dated me when he had the chance, and he misses me... OKAY! I am pretty sure this would have been funny even if I hadn't just popped 12mgs of vicaprofin! I tell ya, this stuff sometimes just comes out of nowhere!
Well kids! I'm off, got cleaning and laundry to do... MY DADDY'S COMING! just in time to meet the love of my life!

It's that death... It's been goin around!

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 15:25:39 GMT

So I am swollen and this abssess is making me sick.. Going to the dentist to get poked with needles... Hope I don't make too big an ass of myself considering my dentist is JJ's mom! So when I start crying when she comes at me with that honking needle... I can be sure to laugh about it sometime with her.... Laters guys... Wish me luck!

LaLa!

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 06:04:46 GMT

So how much fun did I have at work tonight? 0! better then the -10 it would be if JJ wasn't there. I didn't even know I had to work today and it sucked I went in at four and stayed till 12:30... So the whole time I am trying to get all my shit done I am fucking miserable. My tooth is so fucking fucked up! I figured out if I drink coolish water it helps... SO needless to say I have been peeing my brains out. SO I was kinda aggrivated with J at times tonight, but the best part of the night is when the three of us walked to our cars, tom left... And I got a hug, a good one where he wraped himself around me and a kiss, my stuffy nose and all.
I am still in total shock... I am SO glad that I met him... He is easily the best thing that has ever happend to me! He made falling in love with him so easy! How can you not!? He is everything I want, he is sweet, and honest... sometimes painfully honest, but I would rather have that then what I have walked away from in the past, he is more than willing to cuddle, he likes going out with me, he likes going out with me and his friends, he isn't extremly judgemental... And he is mine! HA! Sorry I had a moment there... Well kids I am off to bed, this is the SECOND night in a row that I will be sleeping at home... I don't like it at all... But seeing as I am not 100% that is probabaly best.

Fun Fun Fun!

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 18:40:19 GMT

So I started my weekend of work last night, not only do I get to close thursday, friday, saturday, sunday... But I got to go in early yesturday. Awsome! Then when I got off at 12:30ish I headed over to J's... Got there at like 1... Then he had to go to work and do inventory at 2... So I saw him for like a half hour. Slept and he came home at 8. Felt so bad he couldn't sleep cause he kept coughing. Poor guy is sick:(
Tomorrow before work I think I am gonna see Constintine with JJ and his brother. I got up at 1 and was gonna leave, and there's a bag of cough drops outside the door with a sticky note that said "try these dude" ahhh sometimes I love Chris. So I am off, got some crap to do before I go to work.. Boooooo

Amazing Weekend!

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 21:17:59 GMT

So J and I celebrated Valentines day on sunday due to the fact we both had to work on Monday. It was so great, He made chicken, artichokes and mashed potatoes and we had a bottle of wine. We didn't get around to watching the movie because it was late after we sat around ate and talked. It was so nice! This is my thing. I don't need fancy dinners, jewelry (I will admit it is nice, but I don't need it), Flowers, or any of that crap. Make me a dinner that doesnt come from a box and cuddle with me! That was the best part, was falling asleep feeling all safe and loved.
I hope that everyone had an awsome valenines day!

OMG!

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 00:07:28 GMT

He said it! So last night we all went out, and he gave me the key to his house so I could go there before he left the bar. He got home like a half hour or so after I feel asleep and he was there and he was like "I was so happy when I got here and I saw your car out front, I am so glad that you are here." So I hugged him and the truth is I can't think of one place I would rather be more than with him... I know I am a big dork. Then He said that I had broken the record and I was so confused, and tired, he was like "I have never fallen in love with a girl so fast." I almost started crying. I can't even tell you how many times I almost said it in the past week. I am such a teeny bopper, listen to me! I can't beleive it! I am a super dork. AHHHHH!

Trust... x-posted in my myspace

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 23:58:55 GMT

Just a little tired, but going to bed at 3ish and getting up at 8ish can do that to ya. I am a girl that definatly needs her sleep. Anyhoo, somthing that has crossed my mind.... A lot of diffrent things have contributed to this rant but please bear with me.

So when it comes to relationships and trust... Right now I have complete blind trust in JJ, because I think that is what you need when a relationship starts. He has done nothing to make me not trust him. I have never caught him in a lie and he has alway been straight forward with me. NOW I have been worried that things are "so much better with JJ" because it is the begining, but I have come to realize it is because I trust him, and he trusts me. I have also realized that is the reason things with me and ryan were not so good. There were so many instances where I was lied to and betrayed, and that I saw him do it to other people. It makes it hard for you to put your trust and hope into a relationship like that.
Please bear in mind by lying I don't mean stupid little things like "Hey I am going to Tailgaters" then they really go to McCarthy's... I don't care about little stuff. I mean like "No I am not dating anyone, I want to be with you" in the meantime they are dating someone while they sleep with you.
I also don't beleive in judging someone on things they did in past relationships (not past relationships with you because that is all relative, and you should have learned from the first time around). If people judged me on my past relationships I would be screwed. I think that sometimes two people just arn't ment to be together, and they don't mix well, it doesn't make either of them bad people.
I know I am done rambeling.... Sorry dears.

in and out...

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 19:40:31 GMT

I know I am a traitor but here is my other site... I still love my lj though!

http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=5001768&Mytoken=20050124113658

I know it has been forever

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 20:21:41 GMT

A lot has been going on. Crazy busy is a good thing for once. Work has been going pretty well, having somthing to look forward to doesn't hurt... But that will soon be over... He found a better paying job and he is gonna leave... I am gonna miss that, but on the other hand him leaving means I am getting moved up... I would really rather get to work with him then get moved up but, it isn't my choice. Another good thing is no more having to hide it. Making sure nobody knows... I like the idea of that.
I have also gotten a myspace account... I know a am a trator, but if you have one come see me there. I will post the exact address another time, my name on there is just Cali but there are a lot of those. Well I am off, time to start getting ready for Jill's birthday!